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The Past

They say the “past is the past” But it’s still judged so fast It follows me Haunts me Following me like a shadow That leaves me feeling hollow The shadow beats me down Down so far that I feel as if I might drown I try to find the light I try to make itContinue reading “The Past”

The Greatest Fear

Everything comes fear When we are happy we then soon shed a tear The greater fear of all Is losing the greatest love I’ve ever saw One minute it’s perfect; one minute it’s not One minute it changes with just one thought We can be singing love songs Then act like somethings wrong When weContinue reading “The Greatest Fear”

Heavy Smile

Am I alone? Like sadness I am prone They say “smile, you will look better” But it’s happiness I cannot weather Why me? They say happiness is the key That key is lost I try to smile but at what cost? I try to grin I try to shine But all I can do isContinue reading “Heavy Smile”

You are The Sun and I am The Flower

Isn’t it weird how flowers naturally gravitate towards the sun? No matter where the sun is, the flower always finds it; because it needs it. You are the sun and I am the flower Much like the flower, I take time to open up. I am delicate and beautiful; but I wilt. I wilt andContinue reading “You are The Sun and I am The Flower”

An Odd Puzzle Piece

I walk around Wondering where I fit in I look like them But I’m not like them Im new Fresh Awkward Naive Where do I fit it? To my right, two girls talking In front of me, a family Then there is me I try. I look my best I put on a smile IContinue reading “An Odd Puzzle Piece”

I still love you

I still love you Since our love began Up until I Ran I still love you Even through the Pain Even through the rain Even Through the sun Shine And even when I Whine I still love you When we say Hurtful things Up until we Exchange rings I still love you Through everyContinue reading “I still love you”

Quarantine fashion

It’s been about 2 months stuck in quarantine and I can count on one hand how many times I’ve left the house… so if I have an excuse why not make it count right? So when my sister told me that we had to go grocery shopping, I (pathetically) was filled with excitement, put onContinue reading “Quarantine fashion”

EASY and AMAZING nails at home! (better than the salon)

so you are sitting in your living room, it’s still quarantine and you’re watching Netflix for the 5th straight hour of the day. You look down and see your nails DESPERATELY need some love… but nail shops are a thing of the past. WHAT TO DO?! This happened to me, and I really wanted toContinue reading “EASY and AMAZING nails at home! (better than the salon)”

My life as an ESL teacher in Shanghai, China

So spring of 2018 I was nearing graduation of college. My parents would tell me “get a job!” so I tried to decide what was the best route for me. At the time, I was taking Chinese classes for my minor and my mandarin teacher recommended that I should teach and I will do wellContinue reading “My life as an ESL teacher in Shanghai, China”

Blazer saves the day!

What to do on a random day in quarantine? What helps me feel a lot better is dressing up and expressing how I feel through clothing. So I decided to wear all black, because who doesn’t love black? It was a chilly day so I paired regular black leggings with a plain black tube topContinue reading “Blazer saves the day!”